NEVER FEEL ALONE! 

IMPORTANT MESSAGES 

DON'T EVER GIVE UP!

TRUST YOURSELF

THE DIVINE LAWS OF PEACE
HARMONY AND LOVE

SPECIAL WRITINGS

SPECIAL WRITINGS

THE DARKNESS

I am here - I am now. I am me and no one else understands just like I do because I am unique with my own feelings and my own personality. I don't want you pity and I don't want your attitude, in fact, I don't want you. I just want to be by myself to make my own decisions and have no one else make them for me.

Oh yes, I have done some stupid things, like taking speed and other drugs and I know I am not right, but neither is the world. The world sucks and I want out of it. You won't stop me if I decide to end it all.

I don't really care what you want, what I want is important and I'll do as I want with my body and my mind.

OK, so I go to a place to get help, and they may help me, but at the end of it all what's changed? Have you changed? Has the world changed? Don't think so.

I think I'll just go and take some more, just to feel a little better. And I am doing it for me, not you and you have to respect that.

Now, it is easier - I can win, I can jump from the highest building and fly and I can make a difference so people will remember me...I can...I can...I am.................

If today is the day of your darkest hour, then today is where you start the rest of your life.

Sometimes in our lives we feel as though the world is closing in on us and that no one really cares. Then we want to end it all. We want to go to what we believe is a better place, free from all the worldly problems and free from authority and free from having to put on a front to the rest of the people.

The scenario here is one which happens all to often in our lives and the lives of those who we love.

And they need our help and understanding - they may not need our advice, but they really need for us to be there, caring about them.

If the problem is drug related, which it mostly is, then the person affected does not know really what they want. They feel ashamed and helpless, particularly when they are trying to kick the habit.

So what is next for you, the parent, friend, partner who are trying to help. If possible you must seek professional guidance for yourself so you know how to handle the situation.

The best way is for you to be strong and give the person needing help support when they ask for it. Do not try to force the issue as it will make the problem worse. You must be apart from the person seeking help and remember that they have to be the one to help themselves.

For you, this is very difficult as you see someone you love destroying themselves and you feel helpless. You must however let them seek help...you cannot force them to seek help because you think it is right. In most countries, the law protects the rights of the individual and makes it clear that if a person needs help, then they have to ask for it.

So what is the answer?

It is clear. Be there for them, but keep the communication lines open for them to come to you. In particularly bad cases, where the person does not know their own mind and they are a danger to themselves and others, you may have to move swiftly to have them forcibly taken to a place of care.

It isn't easy for those who are parents, partners or close friends, to see the person like they are. But that is the nature of drug related illnesses and drugs are an illness. Once a person is on drugs, even seemingly harmless drugs like speed, ecstasy or even marijuana, then they depend on that drug - yes, it's an addition, just like smoking or drinking, but the effects are much more harmful in that they alter the mind.

Finally, be strong for you and for the person you love. Be there for them, but don't overwhelm them and put them on a guilt trip. And seek professional help.

LETTING GO - AN IMPORTANT LESSON FOR ALL OF US

 
It was a cool autumn day. Clouds overshadowed the canopy of blue, as if God wanted to hide the sun's great splendor. The winds whispered by as leaves rustled to the ground. A day to remember, that was. The day young women everywhere wait their whole lives for, and I knew in my heart I would treasure those moments forever.

Before me stood a young man with whom I had shared my vast secrets and enchanted moments. I had whispered promises in his ear and did my best to fulfill them. I had never trusted anyone with the key to my heart until he entered my life. Now, I knew the only safe place for this key to remain was with him.

This was a first for both of us. We gazed nervously in each other's eyes, waiting for the other to make the first move. I was unsure if we were ready for this. Making a hasty decision like this could be so devastating to our lives.

We stood there in silence for what seemed an eternity. Echoes from the past rang endlessly in my mind. The laughter and tears we had shared will forever be held in a special place in my heart. My emotions were so vulnerable at that point. Part of me wanted to run and hide, and the other said, "Go ahead. It's time."

Then just as if he were reading my mind, he gently grasped my hand, sending a cold chill up my spine and erasing all my doubt. With his soft voice, he whispered, "It's time." I stood back to take one last glance at him to remember how he looked before we took this major step. Never again would I look at him as I do now. Things would be different once we crossed over; we couldn't look back.

Once again our eyes met. If only we could cease time and steal those moments away in our hearts forever. Neither he nor I would ever feel as we did then. There's only one first time for everything, and this was it. I wrapped my arms around him and playfully kissed the tip of his nose, then I whispered softly in his ear, "I love you."

Then it happened - the moment we both had been waiting for. I'll never forget that day or the silly grin on his face afterward. Tears streamed down my face as he crossed the street to step onto the big yellow school bus. Then he turned to me and said, "Bye, Mommy. I love you."